Something new.... a little scared.

So in two days I begin something new that could change my life. I hope it does. I am not good at journaling, so this is for me to record my private thoughts and feelings a little easier and help me along my new weight loss journey.

Short term goal:
to lose weight so I can have another healthy pregnancy, and feel good about myself before hand, throughout, and after hopefully be able to reach my goals easier since i will be an expert on healthy eating.

Long term goals:
-Better health
-Less pain in my joints and knees from carrying extra weight
-Help my Depression
-Look hot for my hot husband
-Feel better about myself
-Be able to play and exercise freely with my children.
-Not have to look in plus size to find comfortable clothes

Challenges I face:
-Feeding everyone. Kids are all picky, and husband requires like 12,ooo calories a day. so basically I am a short order cook for 6 different people.
-Easter. Nuff said
-Can I afford it? I plan to use my newly acquired babysitting money to pay for this extra food.
-I am a mindless eater. Will I be able to resist eating my kids leftovers?
-Water consumption. I suck at this. I need to be able to drink at least 96 oz of water every day.
-keeping kids from eating my fun, specially packaged, EXPENSIVE meals.
-and how sad that I have to wean my baby. I'm sure my milk will completely dry out during the next week and a half, because I am not eating enough calories to keep up the supply :( So I might be VERY emotional the next little bit.

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. I Know I can. I know I can. I WILL!!!!!!